I'm back at work today. It's slow this morning, and that's a good thing.
If today was Wednesday again, I might have ran away from work. Just straight up awoled like a crazy lady.
Wednesday, 4 month old baby died. He was a beautiful 4 month old baby. Parents found him not breathing in his crib- SIDS. Mom and Dad were of course shocked, falling to the floor in grief. I had to ask them dumb questions while they were still in shock so I could fill out the death certificate. They told me what baby was like. He was a good sleeper. He was their only baby. He liked to be surprised by funny noises- he would smile. He was beautiful, even after life left him.
So, God, please take care of baby. And Mom and Dad, I will think of you on mother's day and father's day and a lot of other days 'cause some things will feel unbearable.
Back to work I am. And peaceful and ready to be here.